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Wednesday, January 27, 2010

What a Female Identified Butch is, and is not! We don't take 'T' to change our appearance!

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Response to a Butch who mentioned that she or others take 'T' and consider themselves a 'female identified Butch'. NO!:

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You take 'T', as a masculine female, you're on the way to transitioning. Maybe it stops with the 'T'. Maybe having facial hair, arm hair, chest hair is enough, breast binding and a large clitoris that some think is now a micro penis.

NOBODY takes 'T', EXCEPT those in peri- or post menopause to bring sexual desire back to one's self, but those are at small amounts compared to those who take 'T' to change their appearance, while vastly increasing sex drive, almost a certain kind of high, which I've heard about from a couple of you around here. .These are two different intentions. Unless one is taking "T" to have more male aspects and strength to succeed in sports, but then if you're found out doping with 'T' , you're OUT. That's cheating.

One cannot simultaneously be a Female Identified Butch AND be taking 'T' in order to appear more male. These two things are MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE. A Female Identified Butch is PROUD to be Butch, AND PROUD to be a Dyke and to be FEMALE. But see, this is what the trans movement doesn't get. We're a different kind of Female, expanding the definition as we've always have FOR MILLENIA, what it means to be Female in a Female body, strong, powerful, courageous, taking on the world and not letting men or anyone else put us in boxes of what we can wear, what we can do, going into the trades or sports of men. We're not dainty, we've resisted femininity all our lives, we've been made to feel like we were freaks and weirdos, told 'you just want to be a man', when what we want is ALL the PRIVILEGES men have, including lusting/loving womyn, without being made to feel strange or weird about it, and being ostracized by hetero males and females and other womyn who can't stand our strong powerful out of the box Butch natures. Who think the only thing we should do is either feminize and soften somewhat, or harden up and become a 'real man', and pass and act as a male. We're NEITHER. We're Females who love Females in our own powerful dynamic, Butch Amazon Womon Centered Way. We put another face on Femaleness, we're tomboys and Butches and Bulldaggers and Dyke Daddies, and Amazon Warriors, and muscular in your face tuffy Dyke Strong women. We don't take shit, we look you right in the eye, and we take up our space. And no, we're NOT feminine, we have our soft and vulnerable sides, but we're nonfeminine, and decidely Dykey, with our primary energy flowing towards the female and partnering with females, and FOR THAT we're hated. We're Homosexual, Lesbian, Dyke, Gay, Queer Females....and obviously and blatantly so. We don't 'pass'. We're IN YOUR FACE Female Homosexuals, Ceremonial Dykes, and we hold down the Dyke image in the most obvious and blatant way. We don't waver in this. We don't fuck gay men, or men as a whole....and in fact we take up our space and stand up to them, even though they, and their women, have all the power.

For that, we face annihilation. We're beaten on, sexually assaulted, killed, denied jobs, housing, healthcare, access to privilege and many other things. We don't pass as male, as FTM's and some Genderqueers do, except the exceptional few, and for that, primarily for safety, not for desire. We don't pass as straight either. Even if a Butch tries to feminize to keep her job, she'll still do the Butch stomp, she'll look awkward, uncomfortable and unnatural in those clothes, because they're not her, that is, they're not us. We were forced to feminize on occassion, enough in our families, as actively as we resisted it...on our own time, why bother, except for sheer survival? We look like drag queens if we do so. And we've been shamed, over and over again, for not being 'feminine enough', for being too blatantly Dykey, Lesbian, Homosexual looking, and now, with this brave new world, for not being 'masculine' enough, so here comes the lies, the surgeries and the hormones. And who gets fat and rich off that? The doctors and the psychiatrists and the pharmaceuticals. Wait till all these young girls 10, 20 years later come down with heart disease, cancer, and who knows what else from all those years of taking 'T'. How are you going to feel about your body then? How are you going to feel when you have to get off 'T' cuz it's literally killing you, and revert back to your softer more obvious Female form? If you had learned to love it in the first place, had the message that us older Butches are trying to pass on that you CAN have your freedoms, as much as possible, you CAN live as a different kind of Female and BE POWERFUL in that, you CAN connect with your Sisters, Butch and Femme alike who admire you just for the different kind of Female you are......and retained your natural body, AND your health.

I've been in Female Identified Butch groups, countless Lesbian, Dyke and Butch internet sites, and I can't tell you how many young women, young Butches/Masculine Tomboyish/boyish women are being actively PRESSURED to transition by their peers, cuz being Butch is NOT enough. And then the damage being exposed of these practices...too tight of binders affecting breathing, heart health, and bones, like what whale bone corsets did to women in the 18 and 1900's. This body obssession instead of true body acceptance, this narcissism, arrogance and male attitudes and power over, and then the same dangers dealing with young FTM's/Genderqueers, the rages, the sexual violence ect from the use of testosterone. Look what it does to men, and how they victimize women. The SAME THING is happening with FTM's taking out their rage and their lusts on women fueled by testosterone they can't handle, and their bodies were NEVER MEANT TO HAVE.


So NO, a Female Identified Butch DOES NOT take Testosterone in order to change her appearance and appear more male. The two concepts are mutually exclusive, like a red light and a green light, you''ll never see the two on at the same time......
-MasterAmazon

5 comments:

  1. AMEN!! I love this post & I will be book marking it for future reference. Thank you! <3

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  2. That's the trap of all "post-modern" culture, MA -- the idea that you can be whatever you like just by deciding so. It's a conqueror's philosophy, one that takes over and obliterates everyone in its path.

    Ultimately, whatever name we take on for ourselves those who are infected with this philosophy are going to invade again - and again, and again. We could start calling ourselves Blue Martians from SubZero Sodium, and shortly after, there would be post-modern conquerors completely unlike us writing books and having conferences discussing how THEY are Blue Martians from Subzero Sodium.

    We can only keep fighting back for our right to exist, just like all other minority peoples have to do in the face of oppression.

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  3. I'm enjoying your writing -- you have important things to say, and are one of the few women saying them. Thank you.

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  4. I still don't know what to make of this situation.

    Perhaps some of these people feel in-between for whatever reason. Perhaps some of these people don't feel quite at home in their bodies as womyn, and they expect to feel better partway between female and male.

    But if any of these people do feel happy in their bodies, then they shouldn't risk their happiness like this. Testosterone is nasty. It can quickly change one's emotions, change one's pheromones, and slowly, and cumulatively, change one's body as well. After taking too much testosterone for too long, it could be hard to be recognized as butch. Taking T doesn't make anyone more butch. Do they want people to see them as men? Do they want to need to femme themselves up when they want people to see them as womyn?

    I'm MtF. Maybe that just leaves me biased against T. But it dulled my emotions and it distanced me from my body. I can't stand the thought that *anyone* who is lucky enough to feel happy in her own body is throwing her happiness away. I am trying to win that happiness back.

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  5. I think this is a VERY post-modern phenomenon. I actually had a genderqueer person tell me that ze might take T in the future just to LOWER THEIR VOICE. Ze does not identify as man OR woman, and rejects both. I do not consider this person to be reasonable, so I didn't get into it with zan, but I was thinking WTF?!?

    It's like T is a vitamin supplement or something! Maybe it's like some flax seed or a protein shake! It's no big deal, is it? I mean, artificial (chemical) hormones manufactured by The Man, for the purpose of profit are inherently HARMLESS, aren't they?? Why would The Man want to hurt me?

    Thank you again for writing this. Surgically and/or chemically "correcting" body after body after body is not the answer.

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