I'm not even sure where to start with this one but the isolation is overwhelming its bad enough living in this teeny tiny town at least by New York City and Bay Area standards. Also in Denver all priced out of those areas and of course who knows how much work is available considering Covid plus the dangers of covert are increased in such dense city environments.
In any case this is a stream-of-consciousness dictated share.
Well the TWIW crowd has had their way so we keep fighting that along with these crazy right wingers who still believe you know who won, when he didn't. We have a traitorous one, Adrian Smith.
To find lesbians is almost impossible around here. I see them but to have found them, talk to them, hang out with them, almost impossible so have been reaching out to my women's spirituality community and doing Zoom with them every few weeks.
We talk on Zoom and I haven't done a meeting in ages I miss that too. I could do that also on Zoom if I wanted to.
My whole life has been online for the last 7 years that it just is not appealing to me in the least. I've been isolating seriously. Isolating except for my coworker, my partner and sometimes my partner's family but then I guess that's what we're supposed to do is like we're only supposed to socialize with our bubbles so everything else is online.
I dream about a lesbian community; who knows if there are even gonna be festivals this summer and if I'll be able to go to them, and healthy enough to go to them.
I can't let sleep on the ground anymore I have to be in a camp or something some kind of bed.
So having community is really hard almost impossible.
Our lesbian communities have been eradicated anyway and we know why you know cause everybody is changing gender can't figure out who they are.
Don't ever ever ask me my pronouns ever. Don't ever refer to me as cis or queer. And all T words are verboten. Other than that I'm glad to have a beautiful female vice president in Kamala Harris.
Back to community: so I have done some rituals online did 1 with EWF and with Ava Parks and with the Bind Trump group and that's been very satisfying at least those folks are real true activist witches I love it. a
Activist witches which is that actually are using their witchcraft with a real purpose beyond themselves.
Because the rest of it is like O let's focus on abundance let's focus on health let's focus on my personal life and what I can get out of it you know I've done so much of that kind of ritual I needed it then I've I appreciate all the abundance rituals that She's granted me abundance and prosperity and healing. I appreciate that but I also appreciate the kind of work that goes beyond the individual because from what I understand is it's personal, community, worldwide; so it works like a ever rippling pool outwards and work on community and nation really gives purpose much like the English witches who stopped Hitler from invading England this was the same kind of thing is stopping you know who who shall not be named what are those dirty T words who is about to be impeached but now the republicans do not wanna imppeach him but hes gone down in infamy.
You've got collusion inside the House and Senate and of course violent collusionists outside of it so it's a 2 way street.
We've got the same inside and outside the lesbian community so it's very hard for us to have community as sellouts certainly want males in our community.
And especially to convince young women that you know what is female which only yoni is female repeat after me Only yoni is female. Let's say it one more time only yoni is female. NO OTHER SEX ORGAN.
Everything else is a social construct. So we got invasion from within and without so I don't know where to have my powerpoints to connect with true community truly like minded sisters and I so need them and I need them in my life and I need touch which I'm not get much of except for my kitties. I love my kitties and my piano which I need to practice more often helps me takes off steam gives me an outlet of creativity.
But I need real community leather sisters, Witch sisters, radical dykes sisters you know the diversity that mich fest had to offer the female diversity let's put it that way that which fest had to offer.
And it saddens me it's gone but I'm hoping that some of these other littler festivals will be able to gather once again even if I just go where all Amazon's go welcome HOME where I could see them eye to eye as in visually. This Bach is about ready to make me cry I think I'm gonna have to put on something a little jazzier because this Bach is just too sad.
I am happy that in this recession I have a job it worries me because I am exposed to the public a lot but I'm religious about hand washing and Mask wearing after all I am an enforcer.
I read all about it all the time.
I keep to the 3 rules but it makes me anti social the 3 rules wear masks both parties to socially distance keep your space for me prefer be 6' or more OK sometimes that doesn't happen up at a window but at least there's outside air. I wash my hands with handcleaner and when I go the bathroom thoroughly under the sink wash water so that's the 3 rules so it's feeding into my anti social personality keep your space for me keep your distance I guess a good New Yorker if they keep space for me don't come up don't be hittin up on me yeah that's the good walking at night in the middle of the night keep your space for me keep my bubble my goddess is walking with me protecting me you know that visualizations that I've taught so many times to so many women is you know whether your bubbles 3" or 10' when you walk in in the middle of night and walking outside like getting off the Bart train walking whole nobody is to come near you and you will defend your space welp that's exactly what this is like living in a small town but like you keep your space to me could you aint getting me sick OK and you aint gonna be my typhoid Mary or for this factory an enforcer that's my job is to enforce these things me and doctor fauci, he could do the research and I read the research. We all have to have a hero in these dark times he and Kamala Harris are mine.
OK so back to community how do we create lesbian community and tell me I'm done reaching out to these ditches around here I hate to say that I mean I don't like call women cuss words but it's just I given up around here then on him nothing common with me anyway I'm way too different and pagan a Butch I'm out loud and proud I'm of Jewish heritage and never Christian I like classical music Need the cultural creative's I mean if I could afford it I just go right on back to Boulder. Back to the beautiful mountains. Boulder. I don't even know a folder would be home anymore though I don't even know if Boulder would be home anymore because the rich bitch's live there now and even my brother can't take it and hes lived there forever he didn't know how good he had it live in there now hes stuck in mexico I mean New Mexico somewhere up in the high desert in a town of 10000 so he has a worse me yes it worse me I mean at least this town is 30000 you know little class fairly well educated I guess working to middle class It's a nice little town but not very interesting people but then I don't get out much anymore can't get out much anymore and the gay folks are like well they're all queer so in all the lesbians are completely tied in with everybody else they don't realize being yet lesbian a special that there's a reason us lesbians get together with other lesbians and not just to have sex but because we share things in common like freedom for men freedom from men and the bonding that only woman to woman can do whether sexual emotional or spiritual are all free or all 3 for me it's all 3
